Updated: Dec 12, 2020
2020 is almost behind us. Its been quite the year to say the least. I feel fortunate that things have been relatively ok for me and my family. No one has gotten sick (knock on wood) and we've all adapted pretty well to the lack of social engagement, not something we are typically accustom to. We do love to entertain with our friends and neighbors.
In the beginning of all this, I tried to focus my attention and sights on music. During the lockdown, with the abundance of free time, I would write, record and release a new song each week. I was able to sustain it for about 6 weeks or so. I also made attempts to reach out to music publishers and libraries in hopes there might be a need or perhaps some interest in using my music for advertising or the like. Needless to say, I was met with countless rejection emails.
Despite the gratification and joy creating new works gave me, it did pose the question as to why I continue to create and share. Apparently my work is of no interest to the would be tastemakers. Given the lack of streams, subscribers and monetary gain through sites like Apple, Spotify, etc., perhaps they are right. It would seem I don't have an audience.
So why am I still creating despite the set backs and lack of interest? Am I delusional in thinking what I create is any good? Perhaps. Its a valid question and one I ask myself almost daily. All I can say is, I don't know how to stop. The ideas keep coming and I can't find the strength to say no. And despite the lack of commercial interest, it doesn't really matter.